My thoughts of Wuv.

I have already, in some ways, talked about my thoughts on love, and other stuff such as that, >HERE<, but I thought, "Since it is Valentine's Day, why not expound?".

I'm going to be a tough girl to win.  That, is summoning it up into a single sentence.

 

And it isn't just that I'm saving my Heart for the 'Only One'.  No, it is hardly that at all.

I have no desire to get married.

 None.

Ok, that was a little untruthful.

I have a very small part of me, that hopes for Prince Charming.

But, it is only a small part.

And I'm sure every girl has a drive, even if it is even the size of a grain of sand, to love and be loved.

But, for the most part, I'm happy to be a spinster.

To be alone.

To be the Daughter who stays home.

To be the fun Aunt who never got married.

 I know most girls want to get married, or at least fall head over heels in love.

But, not me. 

At least, not a lot.

Not enough to count.

The type of man I want, just doesn't exist. I realize that, and have decided, I'd rather be alone, then to marry a person who wasn't the one my heart longs for.

 

So, you see, if there is a person out there, meant for me, He is going to have to do more then win my heart, he'll have to be THE ONE.

The one I smile about when I think.

If not, if he misses the mark, he wont even get a chance to win me.

Because I wont let him.

I've had one friend try to get me to take interest in her brother.

Didn't work.

I have one true love.

And only one.

And I plan for there to forever be one.

Sometimes, I get a little sad, thinking about all my friends and siblings, getting married, and me staying the same.

But, other times, I think, what a blessing it would be!

I would be able to get more involved in ministry, and could devote more time to serving Christ!

I could be that fun Aunt that takes you places, who has sleepovers, and movie nights, and..and..all sorts of fun!

Really, it isn't something to be sad about.

Before I die

Go to a Star Trek Convention

Make sure I get Tom Paris', Tores', Chakotay's, Picard's, Dr. Crusher's, Riker's, Captain Janeway's, Neelix's, Dianna Troi's and Tuvok's autographs.

Publish a NewYork Times best seller.

Learn to play an instrument.

Go to Space.

Tour Europe.

And through my life, my utmost goal, is to try to please but one being.

All this, I hope to do, Before I die.

"The Captain of mine"

My boat rocks upon life's emotional sea, my heart needs some distant crevice to flee,

Thunder claps, lightning roars,

Suddenly I cry, "LORD! let my heart be yours!"

Peace comes over, the sea still rocks, But with Christ as my captain, my boat safely docks,

He does what I could never do,

"Yes LORD! I give my life and heart to you!"

He still is my captain, How could he be not?
I gave him my life, and he mans the boat and the waves I once fought,
Now I lean on his trusting arm, and feel SAFE! for HE is my captain and Lord,
And shall forever be.

~ written by Ashley H.~

(Ashley H. is ME!)