Showing posts with label writers. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writers. Show all posts

20.2.13

Trivial immorality



I journaled for the first time today than I truly have all year, no, longer than that. For months.

True journaling. The kind you pour all your thoughts out. 

When you burden the paper with your troubles, and bless it for freeing your mind.

I forgot how beautiful it felt. I don't want to ever forget again.

I think paper is the best ear, and ink the best voice. 

Anne Frank has been on my mind as of late, not her story, so much. But the telling of her story. How could she possibly know her journal, her daily pennings could become such a wildly popular book?  Surely she looked at the scratchings she made in that dear white and red checked book, and thought, "Oh, was Torheit. Dies könnte nie populär geworden"* the very same way I look at my pink journal with it's slightly pink tinged paper with the darling grey lines, and think, "This is junk, who would ever want to read this?"  
True, Anne was refurbashing her journal to be more readable in case it ever would be, and I'm not.
But the fact remains.
I should pen daily, I don't even have to talk about my day, but perhaps a funny thought, or something pressing on my heart.
because I just never know.


 “There is, of course, always the personal satisfaction of writing down one's experiences so they may be saved, caught and pinned under glass, hoarded against the winter of forgetfulness. Time has been cheated a little, at least in one's own life, and a personal, trivial immortality of an old self assured"
-anne morrow lindbergh

 *"Oh, what folly. This could never become popular." She did speak german, you know....

Cheerio me ol' cream crackers,
The pennist. 

p.s
While journaling, I was listenining to Les Miserables 'One Day More'.
"One day more!
Another day, another destiny.
This never-ending road to Calvary"
I doubt Pandora could have chosen a better song to play for me. 

29.12.12

Snip of Snip.

I know I've been a little MIA here as of late, and while I truly want to write a great long post full of delightful news, it's hard to do that without any news to gush about.

So, will you settle for recent story snippets instead?

 
Lord Neal had done well on his promise, and as Paige cleared the train’s doorsteps, a formally dressed, middle aged man approached her. “Ms. Woolington, I presume?”
“Yes” She smiled, and placed her hand in his, shaking it firmly, “I am; you must be the butler, Mr. Giles?”
He nodded, and returned the handshake, then solemnly turned, and picked up her baggage, loading them into a small covered carriage.
“You do realize, Ms. Woolington, that you shall probably lose your position when the year is out, and you risk your life in coming?”  He kept his back to her as he loaded them neatly on one side, leaving plenty of room for her to sit.
Paige raised an eyebrow skeptically, “I am aware of the constant shift of the estate’s owners, if that is what you mean.  But I do not understand how that affects my life”
The Butler shrugged, and held out his hand to assist her into the carriage, “Then you will soon find out”
 -Stranger Things



What was the use of living if this was to be the rest of her life? If she would just be reduced to a groveling lunatic encaged in this dreary world, what was the point of feeling this pain?
She sighed, and a small movement in the corner of the room caught her eye.
It was a bird, flown in from a cracked window pane; she watched with half interest as it jumped along the window sill, and picked at a bug, no doubt a roach, that tried to scurry away.  It chirped, and turned a glassy eye towards her, cocking it’s grey head, and hopping slightly.
It ruffled its feathers, and flew back out, and Ina sighed again.  What she would give for a pair of wings to fly away with.  To fly above all this hurt, and all this pain that settled in her heart.  To fly away from this burden she carried, and this life she knew was pointless to hide.
What would happen when the curators of this place discovered her secret terrified her.  And what would happen to this soul that beat within her own? This life that vied to live, should it come into the world here?
She sunk to her knees, fully aware that no one was watching her.  No one ever watched here. Maybe they saw, but they never watched.  They looked upon what happened before them, and turned blind eyes.
Blind eyes that could see if they only wanted.
She felt a tear trickle down her face, and she curled up on the floor like an injured animal, and nursed her spirit, broken by another man's wickedness, and her own weakness.
-State of Mind 

 
Tears blinded her eyes, she needed him, she needed him by her, to hold her, and wipe her tears away while he joked about the serious things of life.  She had realized it wasn’t that London didn’t take things seriously; she had seen enough of him that it was obvious he felt things deeply.  Laughing at things instead of fearing them was his way of being brave and comforting himself.
She bit her lip, life without London would be…unbearable. It was darker then the past he had brought her out of.  There was a big world ahead of her, and she didn’t know how to navigate it. Without him, and those purple jeans, those thick combat boots and that cocky hat, without him, and that ready smile. Without him and his off key whistle, without him and his wink that, she had tried to deny it, had set her heart to fluttering, without him, she was hopelessly lost.
Ashe jumped to her feet, her cold hands clenched at her sides, “I love you London!”
The few passerbyers gave her odd looks, and hurried on their way, but she didn’t notice.  She took off running, she had to find him before he left, before he went wherever he was heading, she knew now. No offer, no bribe, no threat would keep her from him.
-London Ashe

 
“Phelps! What are you on to?” Richards leaned over the paper where she was scrawling hastily; it looked like just a bunch of empty figures and random numbers.
“I knew the lack of motive disturbed me, and I should’ve heeded the disturbance I felt. You know, Richards, part of being genius is just following the urges and letting them sway you, and I ignored by urge. And it was costly” She balled the paper up, and tossed it to the floor.
Myra picked it up, and tried straightening it out, she frowned, “Phelps, this makes no sense”
“Not to idiots, of course” Phelps started again, her pen flying even quicker, and she crowded the figures closer, “but to me and him, ah, yes. We know what deadly dance we play. I should’ve known so much better, it’s him. It always is. Well, not always, but often. He likes toying with me, dangling a string in front of my face, and if I pull the string, all hell tumbles down on me” Phelps bit her lip, and started anew, “So, I’ll just cut the string, and see if it awakens the spider who spun it”
-Phelps 



“It’s been nearly 550 years since any living being has stepped foot on that once green expanse known as Earth, the home of life, the cradle of humanity, as it was torn from us”
Fern tapped her chin and looked at the blinking words on the dictation log.
“No, not torn from us. That makes it sound as if we had no part in the happenings that surrounded our flight from the planet, and that is entirely not true.  We had everything to do with it, and we will have everything to do with getting it back. 
-Jade 0.2

So, there it is, all my writing glory for the time being.  I must say, I'm rather proud of my current works.  Oh, and, I was partly mistaken, there are some interesting things that have arisen, such as,
1- I'm going to see Les Miserables
2- I went to a 1940s Murder Mystery Dinner Party (I'll have pictures presently).
and
3- And I really think that is quite all.

-signed with red fingernails, since that was "the style" of the 40s and I just haven't removed it yet
Ashley.

11.12.12

The Author



She tapped her chin, and gazed at the sky of words before her.
“Still dwelling on what’s done?” A man came up behind her, standing a respectful distance from her, and yet the feeling of adoration was almost visible.
“No, not on what’s done, but what was left unfinished” she frowned, and twirled a creamy colored quill pen in the fingers of her right hand.
“You left, let your heart dwell here, my lady” he took a step forward, a frown of worry creasing his brow.
“But should I have left? Where they ready for me to step away?” she turned towards him, a strand of blond hair falling in her face, and she brushed it away, her eyes turning sad.  She added softly, with a tinge of remorse haunting her words, “Was I ready?”
“You know I am not capable of answering such questions for you, my lady”
She nodded, “I know…I know” she turned to look up at the dark sky absent of stars, but with cursive writing etched across it’s black expanse,  “they call for me, their Mother, to return”
“And will you?” the man moved to stand next to her on the balcony overlooking a most mystical land of rivers, mountains, shadows and lights.
She nodded, and slipped her hand in his, “Can I not?” he smiled, and squeezed her hand, “Writer Mother, do what you must.  You are our creator and you are the only one who can choose where your heart goes, but all I ask is…”
She nodded, knowing what he wanted to say, but was afraid to word.
She knew him, for he was a piece of her heart, as was this whole place, and every other place, every other world, her worlds.
“I will return to you, but I must finish the business I left undone.  My heart will never be easy until I finish writing what I had started” she smiled up at him, and for a moment, wanted to hug him close like a Mother to her child, “How can I not return to one of my children?”
He laughed lightly, “I don’t think you can” he folded her into a hug, holding his Author Mother close before backing away, “We shall await your return, my lady”
She gathered her long skirts about her, and went to stand near a shimmering doorway that appeared from thin air, its surface looking rather like an inked painting.
“Do you think I fully leave you? Even while I am with the others, I shall be here too; I cannot leave me children completely.  Even if it is in going to another” she blew him a kiss, and stepped through the doorway, her being disappearing into another fictional world bared to him.
And truth she had spoken, her heart remained.  It was divided among all her children, divided in all the worlds she had created; A piece of her forever remaining even when it was finished and grown.  Even when she set them to sail off on their own, as she stood on the shore, waving her banner, and drying her eyes with a fragranced handkerchief, she remained with them. Her mother spirit wafting like a gentle breeze.
He smiled, and took a deep breath, and watched as her writing instruments turned into a curl of smoke, and headed up towards the worded skies, doubtlessly going to join her in the other world she had left to.
And he turned back to the castle, heading to do the tasks the Author Mother had already set for him to do.
One doesn’t have much spare time when your Author likes to have dragons slain, trained, and befriended.



You know, I truly have no idea where this sprang from.....but, in case you wonder, its me and an unnamed male character.
And yet....I think I've started a new story as well.....
It was so weird.....and....nice. It just felt...just nice. 

Tell me if my constant writing chatter is boring you to tears....
 

30.11.12

Once Upon a November

because I'm such a child, and totally filled this out
I did it.  I finished, I won, NaNoWriMo.  My word count ticker now has purple *WINNER* on it. 

This has been the best November I've ever had the honour of living. 
 I've met so many awesome people. 
 I've written words, some I loved some not so much.
I've fallen in love with characters.
I've fangirled over other people's characters.
And I've realized just how much I love writing.

Guys, I just want to write forever, ok?

7.2.12

Bedazzle

Last year, I was really in a money pot hole.  Actually, it went further then that, for close to 3 years, I've been in the tight purse group.  I spent money on birthdays, and I went as tight as I could on that too.
This year, I wanted to be different. 
So, I had two different prospects, jump in the Photographer's world with a splash, which I still plan on doing! But getting your name out locally when there are already two bigger photographers filling the need can take a while.
But, the second idea, was to branch out my love to create jewelry.
So, with a little bit of pushing from my Mom, I'm about to open Avalyn (Beautiful bird) designs!!!

*recorded applause*

I'm not yet ready for a grande (P'tack, you word check.  I say this IS the proper way to spell grand) opening, I thought I'd show you my favorites...

 Kes.  I made these, and while holding them at arms length, thought, 'These remind me of Kes!"  Kes' personality is bright, cheerful, and very fun.   Do these earrings not reflect that style?
(I can imitate the way Kes talks...don't tell anyone! Shhh!)
Renaissance.  Inspired by Tudor style  The crackled red, and the ruby charms....Can you say, "Lady Jane Grey" with me?
Lady Emma.  At first, I planned to call these just plain Emma.  Don't ask how I came up with the name. It just popped up lie random inspiration always does. But after thinking, just 'Emma' wasn't elegant enough.  Add 'Lady' to something, and you add instant elegance!

So, these are just my favorites.  I have close to 15 Earrings, and two more necklaces.

I should open my Etsy shop before March, but it might (just might) open in the beginning of March.  I pinkie promise (and I take them seriously!) to let y'all know the minuet it opens!  AND< once the shop is open...I'd be interested in giveaways...just saying..


P.S Happy 200th birthday of Charles Dickens!! Has anybody looked at Google's homepage yet?

"Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before--more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle".  - Great Expectations






P.S.S For Nova: CLICK HERE.

P.S.S.S
I apologize for the lack of a post yesterday.  Truly, I didn't know what to post about.  Outside of getting our livingroom painted lovely coffee brown, having a massive headache that refusesed to respond to Ibuprofen,  and starting to potty train Titus, nothing really exciting happened.  
You have my formal apology.

P.S.S.S.S
My birthday is in 4 days!!! AND< the giveaway ends in 4 days. AND< I have ANOTHER giveaway planned in 4 days.

20.11.11

Wot Wot!

I've been reading the Redwall series by Brian Jacques, and LOVING them. yes, loving in caps.

 I love the Rabbits, Honorable (Hon, for short) Rosie, Who always laughs deafeningly; Basil Stag, named himself Stag because stags are such wonderful creatures;  Torque, who is always singing ballads, and loves Hon Rosie with all his big heart;  Brigadier Thyme, Wot wot!; and all the rest of Salamandstron's long Patrol. Who can't help but love Warrior Rabbits?

The Moles. Ah, they stole moi heart away first off.  They're strange way of talking, ah, makes me smile every time. I would repeat it for you, but I just can't do it justice!
And, THE Badgers. those wonderful creatures. Lords of Salamondstron, Caretakers, Wise ones. Leaders, Warriors, and powerfully strong. If you find a creature daring to go hand to hand against a Badger, he is a sure to die fool.  Boar the Fighter, Bella of Brockhall, Mother Mellus (The big hearted, and stern Mother to all), Sunflash the Mace, All of them. I love them. The Badgers make the book 100% better. Without them, a whole lot of fire and adventure wouldn't be there.  Of course, without Martin the Warrior, who has a mouse, there'd be no story at all.
Oh, our great Mice of Redwall Abbey. Most are kind hearted, helpfull, and gentle animals. But, you will get some.... Dandin,  Mathias...and surely more that I haven't yet come too.
Most of them, however, are like this docile fella below:
 A gentle Brother, Abbot (or sister or Abbess!).

Oh, I wish I could go to Mossflower Wood. I'd hug a Mouse, Talk and eat with a Mole (did I mention, if there is one thing Mole's like better'n diggun, its uh eatun? Thats mole language, BTW.), Admire a Badger, fight a Rat, Weasel, Stoat, Wildcat, Ferret or Fox, Hold Martin's famed sword, Laugh with a Rabbit, Wot Wot! I've been practicing my Rabbit talk, ya see. I think I can 'Wot Wot' nearly as well as Brigadier Thyme.  Yes, oh, yes. Redwall Abbey would be such a restful place!!

Mr. Jacques, I know your dead, I wish I could've gotten addicted before you died, but thank you. You are a masterpeice writer, an epic storyteller, a stringer of wonderful yarns, and a legend in your self.

For Redwall!
For Salamondstron!
Wot Wot!